The sun’s setting now; I can see it from the window in my Mum’s room. The sight of it reminded me of a quote Yong Sian shared with me 2 nights ago. I can’t remember it word for word, but it said that watching the sunset with someone you love is the best feeling in the world, and watching it alone makes you feel lonely, sad and all that. I agree with that; whenever it’s sunset and I’m alone, sometimes I just feel this tinge of sadness. Maybe that’s because the sunset usually signifies the end of the day; the end of something.

Was having lunch at the Botanical Gardens with my parents earlier on, and saw some kids playing outside from inside the food court. Seeing the smiles on their faces, you can see that they are truly happy. I love the innocence of little kids, and how they are able to express their feelings to truly. As we grow up, we learn some things, gain some, and lose some. As we grow up, we lose much of our innocence, and sometimes we can’t and don’t express our feelings as openly as we used to.

I find that a lot of times I don’t express my feelings outright, and had all of part of them. Sometimes the environment, the position I’m in just doesn’t allow me to, sometimes it’s because of the people around me. If you see someone smiling at you today, can you tell if they are really happy, or is it just a facade, and they are trying to hide something?

Funny how you get different reactions when different people tell you the same thing. Yong Sian told me something personal about himself some time ago, and my reaction was a pretty mild, if not a neutral one. But when Amenda told me the same thing about Jireh, I just felt a little sad for him… I guess you get different reactions for different people, it depends on how much you care/ feel about them and their relationships with you. However, that’s not going to change my opinion of him; he is still the person he has always been to me.

“Eyes are the windows of one’s soul.”

If one day I looked through the eyes of another person, what sort of world would I see? Would it be like what I see now? What if… what if the person had problems with his eyesight, and my world became blur? What if that person was colourblind – what would the world look like then? The greenery, the blue sky, what if I never had the chance of seeing them in their full glory – the way they have been created by God? Even if the person had perfect eyesight – would I see things in the same light as I have now?

Have you ever thought of waking up one day, and not being able to see? I thank God for giving me sight. Even though my vision is not perfect, I am thankful for being to see this beautiful world the way God has created it. Take time each day to give thanks.

In response to this, I don’t feel that there’s anything wrong with teens keeping online diaries, it gives us space to express ourselves. The most important thing is that we know the limits, which most of us do. If having an online diary is wrong because we’re letting others look into our lives, then the Diary of Anne Frank should never have published. It our site anyway, why should others tell us what to put on it?