My stomach doesn’t seem to be agreeing with me tonight for some reason. Sigh. Sunday nights seem to feel gloomy to me for some reason, maybe because there are not many people online to talk to, and there’s nothing much for me to do as well.

I’ve been going up to the attic for the past 2 sundays to join the juniors for their sunday school or fellowship since the adult sunday school has stopped for the year. It’s really good to be able to go back and join them, and it does remind me of my time there for the past 6 years. I’m returning next year to serve! Yup, i’ve decided to teach sunday school, and i’ll be taking the younger group (ie. the sec 1-3s). I would have felt weird if I had to teach the older group anyway, since some of them used to be in the committee for the youth fellowship and we’ve worked together before, and others are my friends as well. It feels funny to teach your friends when the age gap between both parties isn’t that big in the first place. It’s going to be a challenge and a great learning experience for me as well.

I’ve had the opportunity to talk to Jireh for quite a bit these 2 weeks as well, which I see as a good thing because everyone seems so busy on sundays, and I hardly get to talk to the other juniors as well. Next week’s farewell for the J2s will be a reminder of what my batch went through the last year. 6 years sounds like a really long time, but yet it passes so fast, doesn’t it? I guess some of those who are leaving will be sad, but you can always come back like what people from the previous batches have done. You may leave the fellowship, but the memories and the attchment that you have for the fellowship is something that can never be changed. Especially for those who have served or are very involved in the activities organised by the fellowship. Personally, the memories of the times i’ve spent in fellowship are some of the sweetest ones i’ve ever had, and i’m really glad to have the opportunity to get to know the people there, especially the partners i’ve had in the years i’ve served. And I get to serve together with some of them again next year!

This was a song that I first came across a few years ago, and a few days ago, I came across it again.

When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea-billows roll,
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to know;
“It is well, it is well with my soul.”

Recieved news last night that Pastor Ho and Pastor Yu would be transferred to other churches, and a new pastor will be coming in. And after the 2 pastors leave, Pastor Yeung will be the pastor-in-charge. It’s quite sad to have 2 pastors leaving us at the same time, especially now that we’re so used to having them around. Pastor Ho and his family have been here for quite some time, and even though Pastor Yu is the newest pastor in the church, she’s really nice and I’m sure a lot of people really appreciate having her around. But I guess I’ll just have to get used to seeing different pastors come and go, since there is a shuffling of pastors once in a few years. And who knows, they might just come back to serve in this church again, like Pastor Yeung, who was transferred elsewhere and then returned to serve in our church some years later. Ultimately, it really doesn’t matter which church they are at, what matters is that they’re still serving God. I’m sure that Pastor Yeung will continue to lead the church well, and I’m looking forward to seeing how the new pastor is like as well.

I was asked by Ze Ling and Ben a few weeks ago whether I wanted to teach for Sunday School next year, and I haven’t given them an answer yet. I do have my concerns and fears, but I know that He will lead me though whatever that lies ahead. And I have all the current seniors who are teaching to guide me along as well. So I’m going to put whatever I’m worried about aside, and just go by faith. I know that I want to serve in a ministry related to the youths, and I don’t wish to let me fears hold me back.

How could I have forgotten that I was supposed to be ushering for service today?! Last sunday, I know I had checked the list of ushers for the coming week, and somehow I don’t remember seeing my name. But I think it’s more probable that I had seen my name, and somehow I had forgotten about the whole thing during the course of the week. Sigh. Getting to caught up with studies and other stuff?

A one and a half day long weekend is really too short for me, but this is what my weekends will be like for the next two weeks. About 4 weeks left of school! (Till the exams that is…)

Even though I’ve left the youth fellowship already, there’s still this attachment to the fellowship. Just ask anyone that used to be there and they’ll tell you what fellowship meant to them. And for the ex-committee members, especially the president and vice-presidents, the bond they have for the fellowship is even stronger. After all, this is the place where you and your friends have served together; the place where you have devoted your time to, and… it’s something diffcult to explain… you have to exprience it yourself.

This sort of attachment just makes you care for the fellowship, wanting to see all the programmes going smoothly, and for fellowship to become a better place. Many of the current teachers had all been in this fellowship at one point of time, and their attachment to the fellowship, I believe, is one reason why they care for each and every person in there, and try to help out in whatever way that they can. But I feel sad that sometimes their help and presence seems to be taken for granted. And sometimes they’re just to nice to those in the fellowship.